Tuesday 17 March 2015

And Now

Before I start apologising for taking a month long break, I hope all of you are glowing from the joys life has birthed you with.
But if you aren't as blessed with good fortune, which puts you in the same sampan as me, well, take a break.
From school, from your diet, your responsibilities, from life.
Who am I kidding.......
Such is life, no breaks, only 10 minute naps from Khatib to Yio Chu Kang if you're lucky enough to get a seat in the train.

So the real option right now is to just occupy yourself with more responsibilities as a form of escapism from the reality of your ever-growing pile of adult things you have to handle.
Like a job, which I got. Also which I suck at.
Like honestly? I've only worked for a week but my ICs are so bored of me pestering them to correct the awful mistakes I've done.

Next in the list of things Hazirah has been occupied with
*depressingly cheerful variety show soundtrack playing*
I received my A Level results!
I mean, they're the best grades I have ever achieved in the awful 2 years I spent studying for them.
I was proud of myself, my personal best yo~
And then it hit me that my future is pretty bleak.
Like I don't even know where to go from here. I lost track of the yellow brick road that was supposed to bring me to safety and back to a stable future.
All I can do right now, is pray that the limited universities that I am eligible for accept me.

So moving away from my responsibilities, while waiting for those emails that can make or break you, I'm here living on my laptop, editing photos and planning for a personal project.
While working to buy myself some ~tools~ to start living life!
Aka Photoshop and Lightroom...
And for the hopefully upcoming university school fees.

Thanks for reading!
ByyEEEeeeeeeEyEEE
Squidkid